Reconstruction (predate)

I remember nothing from the time they came to get me in the Pre-Op room and when they installed me in my regular bed.  I was of course hoping to remember having said something witty and brave, but there's literally nothing there.  I must be incredibly susceptible to the affects of the narcotics they're using these days.

The original plan was to get to the room and try to get up and around that afternoon.  But that didn't work out, so they came in the next day.  I don't mind telling you I was shocked at the level of pain the first time I got out of that bed.  I don't think I managed my morphine very well.

Reconstruction (update)

Got here at about 8am Thur, 7-28; going home today (Sun 7-31) at about 11am.  It's weird because I don't feel that much different in some respects.  eg: It hurts a lot when I move in certain ways.   I have to remember that Dr Browne has fixed the main dysfunctions, and so the main causes of pain in my hip are gone now, replaced by new causes of pain, but ones which will heal and improve, and cause less pain as time passes.

There's a subtle shift in mindset that actually flips me over from entropy and disintegration, to  an outlook considerably more in keeping with my general expectations for improvement and advancement.

I think a lot of people see me as cynical, but I believe my outlook is pretty optimistic.  I think you have to work pretty hard to maintain an appropriate level of skepticism, so I'm sure that gets misperceived as cynicism.  What I'm talking about is pushing things forward, gently or aggressively, according to what the facts dictate is possible to achieve.  For the first time in a good stretch of years, I have the feeling that on a personal level, I have a real shot at making things better.  I'm enough of a Randian to understand that as I make myself better for myself, I have a better shot at making the rest of my little corner of the world better for everybody who shares it with me.  That's how it's always worked before anyway, so here's hopin'.

Reconstruction (update)

Prob'ly going home today.  2 pretty good nights in a row.  Mostly headaches are the big problem, because (I think) when I sleep on my back, slightly elevated, I end up with some tension in my neck that gives me the headache.  Dunno - could also be caffeine withdrawal - just guessing.  Nobody else seems to know much either.

It always amazes me that the hospital is where you go to get better, but for whatever reason, you feel bad the whole time you're there.

Reconstruction (update)

Day 2 Post-Op.  Difficult night, mostly because everything's uncomfortable.  There's no position - sitting or lying down - that works for any real length of time.  I feel hung over.  Kinda light headed and shaky and with a low-level headache, no appetite and mild nausea.

It makes some sense that discontinuing the morphine will make a big diference.  They were concerned enough to send me down for xrays a couple of hours ago to make sure there's no obstructions,  Waiting  to hear.

But, last nite and this AM, I was able to negotiate 3 trips to the bathroom to pee.  Much rejoicing.

Reconstruction

Here's an approximation of what my left hip looks like, compared with normal:

By this time tomorrow, I should be chillin' in the recovery room under the influence of heavy sedation, with my brand new, store-bought hip joint in place.

Not looking forward to 3 days in the hospital, and 6 weeks of nuthin' but rehab before I can start doing what I wanna do, but if I get to walk around like a normal human again, I'll take whatever they're offering.

I hope to be able to do some updates while I'm stuck in bed over the weekend.  If nothing else, I'll see y'all on the other side.

A Thought

It's never about what they say it's about.

What if the GOP crazies are willing to default on the debt because they think it's a clever way to fuck the Chinese?

Just wonderin'.

Elizabeth Warren And Today's Quote

Ask a smart and qualified woman what it means to her when somebody calls her a "know-it-all", and I'm guessing you'll hear back something like, "It means I kept using my brain even after no one wanted to fuck me anymore" -- to bastardize a line from Tina Fey (via Jason Linkens).

I think we're missing a huge opportunity to straighten out some serious shit by not getting Elizabeth Warren confirmed to head up the Consumer Financial Protection Bureau.  But now there's talk of running her for senate.  Could be interesting.

Rupertgate

Standard play - claim victimhood and blame "the media".

In one way, I just gotta give 'em props. The bottom of the shit-hole I like to call DumFux News will simply never be reached.


Read this From James Fallows at the Atlantic.

Balanced Budget Nonsense

Bruce Bartlett is becoming a real hero for me.

Historically, those supporting a balanced budget amendment to the Constitution were only interested in balance per se. That is, requiring that revenues and expenditures be as close to equal as possible. The view was that if the states – almost all of which are required to balance their budgets annually – could do it then so could the federal government.

One problem is that the states don’t really balance their budgets. All have separate operating and capital budgets and only the operating budget is required to be balanced. By contrast, the federal budget lumps together operating and capital expenses, such as roads and buildings that will last for decades. Moreover, the states are notorious for using gimmicks to give the appearance of budget balance even though they run deficits.

TIme Out

I've been in Vacation Mode since Thursday.  I plan on being back around the 25th.

Shortly after that, I'll be getting my first bionic hip.  If I'm up to it, and the hospital allows it, I'll start posting again right after surgery - as soon as I can anyway.

See ya'll on the other side.